Terrified :S

ahhh, i have the dreaded dentist soon!
Very, very scared and i have thought about cancelling but i cancelled the last time but did have a good reason: Swine Flu! Oink.
Im scared and also, i dont know how long i can go without coughing. i have a really chesty cough (which smoking is not really helping)and i dont think they will like me very much if i suddenly bolted up to cough.

I overslept this morning. i was going to get up early, have a shower, go collect my tobacco from the tobacco lady and do some other bits but again, ive ended up online. I have to leave soon to go and withdraw my money to hand over to evil dentist person. So not only is he going to inject me with the scary needle and mess around with my teeth but he is also going to have a huge effect on my bank balance which is already pretty low.

Yet again im going to miss a good night out, i havent been out in a long time but it has stopped the rumours that a person started at the yard. Apparantly i am a raging alcoholic and a drug addict.

I will say now that i have tried cannabis when i was younger but when you smoke way too much of it a go green in the face and start puking everywhere, its enough to put you off for life. Other drugs i will not touch, heroin, cocaine, pills...I see what it does to the people that come for their theraputic horse riding sessions and its not pretty.

I will admit though that on many occasions i have been admitted to hospital die to alcohol poisoning. this is usually because ive gone a bit bonkers and thought a few drinks would help. I then have the problem with knowing when to stop when im in that state of mind. It mainly happened when i was younger but the last time was January. I drank an awful lot, fell down the stairs and got hypothermia. I was very embarassed when i woke up and my dad was sitting there. It put me off drinking for a few months and i couldnt even stand up for three days. Needless to say, i havent gotten myself in that state for a while. Even in the summer when i drank alot of cider i was still just about concious as i managed to down some paracetamol but i havent allowed myself to get into the state i was back in january.

So to make it clear...I am NOT a drug addict and although i like the odd drinking binge, i am NOT an alcoholic.

Anyway, ramble over. Got to leave now and then after im going to wait for a phone call from my mum to let me know how the inquest went.

Have a pleasant day :)